When talking blogging, people have been asking, “Where have you been?”. I can’t really explain where I’ve been. I can’t completely put my finger on why I’ve been silent in my storytelling. I can tell you what I do know … I’ve been at work three days of the week. Which I love. I’ve been spending evenings soaking up the gorgeous fall weather. Which I love. I’ve been spending Mondays and Fridays soaking up sweet Barrett time. Which I love. I’ve gotten to travel {ole’}. I’ve been able to read books for pleasure. I’ve been partaking in Husker football festivities. I’ve been really truly considering writing a book. I’ve been snuggling up to my husband at night instead of the glowing screen of the computer. I’ve been spending time with friends and family. Love. Love. Love. Love. Love.
Happiness has been oozing from my pores. Fall is my most treasured time of year and this year has been no exception to that rule. The trees appear to be on fire with the colors of Autumn. The air smells of firepits and crisp cut grass. The sunsets fill the sky as if to prove that heaven lives there as well. Fall is where I’ve found my inner bliss.
But that’s partially why I’ve not been writing. When talking of your happiness, it feels like gloating, bragging, or showing off. And it feels as if, it’s human nature to find such things annoying. But, the truth of it is, right now, life feels like life is sparkling. Barrett is at a sensational stage. While he has his moments full of spit and spite, Barrett is one fascinating little boy and Adam and I find ourselves completely immersed in all things Barrett. His expressions often make me bust a gut, his snuggles make my heart melt and even his tantrums make my mouth turn up a bit. As is true with so many parents I know, each and every day that I get to know Barrett, I find something new that I absolutely adore. Though it might have taken me a bit longer to find my place in parenting, we’ve been spending the last several months in the sweet spot and can only imagine it continues to get better and brighter for quite sometime.
As I noted above, I am going to start working on a book. That’s right. I’m certain that it will never be on the shelves of your local Barnes and Noble nor do I even believe it will make it too far out of my noble barn but I will pour my heart into the pages nonetheless. I am compiling and reworking all of my blogs into a piece that I can submit to publishers, magazines and anyone who will listen. This is one of those projects that I never would have taken the time to do before I had Barrett because “me” time was all the time then. But now, it is something that can be my very own. It doesn’t cost any money. And, it brings me great satisfaction. After over two years of writing, I have found a path for my ponderings and I am elated.
Adam and I have never been bad, so to say we’re really good, doesn’t really make sense. However, I think that with each year, Adam and I find things to love that we never even knew were part of the original package. And that is simply blissful.
Our parents are healthy, our family members are supportive and happy, and my friends are phenomenal {all of you}. I often used to find myself thinking like Charlotte in Sex and the City {the Movie} … believing that something unfortunate was bound to happen, that the other shoe would drop, that one person didn’t deserve such a dose of blessings. For now though, I’m ignoring that part of the universe and focusing on this sweet spot.
Surely I’ll look back some day and think “those were the days”…
Right now, my present is truly that, a gift.
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