Okay. I still love you, NICU. Really. I’m not mad. But just tell me, are we being punk’d? Remember how you told me that at night, Harrison likes to eat but he is pretty content. And when he isn’t content, holding him does the trick? Remember that?
As I sit in my nursing chair, with a babe going on what I’m thinking has been about 4 hours of off and on screaming and Adam and I each having gotten about an hour or two of sleep each, I have to ask myself… And all of you… are we on Candid Camera?
And I have to remind myself, we did not bring home a 6 week old, we brought home a -1.5 week old. So I gotta give Harrison credit for being as awesome as he is. But I could do without the screaming.
Oh fussing and crying. I haven’t missed you. Inconsolable, gassy, crabby fussing and crying. The stuff no five S’s can seem to stop. The stuff nursing only quells for short spells. The stuff that makes a babe ravenous one minute and vehemently opposed to feeding the next. The stuff that none of the four different brands of binkies I bought in preparation seem to pacify. Hoooey doggies. How does your brain actually forget this stuff? Can someone please tell me this is how it goes and I’ve just totally forgotten it? Because I’m thinking that’s the case.
I know it’s night one and I’m complaining. But I’ve had screamers so this behavior makes me more nervous than a long-tailed cat in a room full of rocking chairs {thanks, boss}. So I am hoping it’s just because of the first night home adjustment or normal preemie baby behavior or a total fluke. Or even that Harrison has his days and nights all topsy turvy. And that it’s just going to take a little time. Because at least I know that after time, this all works itself out. Regardless, I’m glad we had six weeks to rest up for it. Because it appears to be game time, folks. And because the other boys will be up in a couple of hours and a new day as a family of five will be in full force. It’s about to get crazy up in here! And I guess, if we are on tv, I’m glad we’ve been keeping our room clean.
