As I read Good Night, Moon to Barrett tonight, my eyes began to well up with tears. I thought of leaving Barrett tomorrow. I thought of having spent most of nearly every day with him so far. I thought of how little he was when I made the decision to stay home and how far we’ve all come. Adam closed the door and told me to take all the time I needed.
As I held him and rocked him, I whispered in his ear “Mommy’s not leaving you tomorrow and Thursday and Friday because she doesn’t love you … but because she does”, and I wept a bit. He let me rub his feet, laying still and looking up at me with his precious eyes. We had a moment. A good one. At the end of a day of good moments and moments of craziness, we had our moment and working or not, that will not change.