Hey there, friends! I know that some of you have followed Baby on the Brehm for the last 8 years… when I was just a 25 year old mama-to-be who thought being pregnant was essentially the same thing as housing an Alien lifeform for 9 months. And then, you followed me through my first screamer. As I navigated the hopes of becoming supermom and realizing it was. impossible. Oy. vey.
Then we decided to have a second bambino/a and ended up lather/rinse/repeating when we had another 36 week boy. Who measured just 2 ounces bigger than the first son we’d brought into the world.
And then, I talked about the hard stuff. Like the really hard parts of motherhood. Of feeling isolated. Of loving beyond what I believed to be possible. I wrote about sharpie markers all over our bedroom courtesy of the Oldest. I wrote about unwavering tantrums courtesy of the Middlest.
And then. Miscarriage. Scary. Emotional. Confusing. Crippling, in a way. I wrote about marriage. And items to buy. And womanly times o the month. And love. And friendship. I wrote and wrote. Some of you were here for it all… and others came in at different times on the timechart. And then, our even premier premie. Harrison came and added to our resume of parenthood. A full-out NICU stay.
And you wrote back to me. All the years. You told me I wasn’t alone. I wasn’t doing it all wrong. I wasn’t crazy.
Ten years of marriage. Blissfully happy. And then. The big C. Cancer. Who could have even predicted? But the blog, it’s pretty much become a person in my life. It has a lifeform, in my heart. It has become a friend. A fond, familiar, consult. A beautiful place I come to for solace and peace.
A place where people love me even though I am a hot mess {read: my authentic self} in every way possible. And over time, an outlet where I’ve become ME. And become okay with ME. With this girl who’s not so good at a lot of things. But who is sure trying hard.
So today, for Friday, I decided to flashback to blogging and email circa 1995. And share with all of you … those who have been here since September 2008 to today… Some answers to some boring questions. Some answers to things that you may not have ever know about me. And I’d love for you to fill out the survey, if you have a blog — or, if you don’t for Flashback, send it out to your friends via email and make them think it’s 1997.
